Past Lives Affect Us Now?

In a previous posting this summer, I mentioned our inherent multi-dimensionality, operating in other dimensions whether consciously or unconsciously. Those lives in other dimensions are occurring now, as we are "living" in this one. I also indicated that we clear from these dimensional levels in the here and now. So, how do past lives fit in to our clearing process, and how are they affecting us, and how do they begin to show up? How do our core issues play a part, and what about the twin?

All great questions to ponder. As I move along this process, I find that my internal landscape is like shifting sands in the wind, ever moving, ever changing and appears different on a daily basis. As I go deeper in to my own process of awakening, I find that there are times that an unmoving unwavering emotion, feeling or thought will take up residence in my consciousness. This feeling or emotion will lock in and have no apparent cause in my immediate reality. In most cases, it is a combination of several of my core issues that are masked by other emotions that I can't put my finger on like being sad, morose, angry, or frustrated. During these times, I cannot "shake it" and I cannot put a label to it. It hides the core of not good enough, powerless victim, or unworthiness with this sadness and frustration for example. I would suggest that you do not allow yourself to visit these feelings for long and do all you can to keep them from permeating your current reality.

Welcome to past life clearing! As I move through this process, I have moved through many past life clearings. It is a necessary part of the healing and aligning process and becomes more prevalent as we go deeper into the process, and deeper into the core issues. We pull to us the past lives that contain these issues, closer to the creation of the core issues, to be cleared, released and reprogrammed, reprogrammed back to our original matrix, i.e.- I am enough.

Depending upon the depth of the issue and the tie-back to the related lifetime, the past life can seem to take over the current lifetime. It is not necessary that we remember the lifetime itself, we are living and "re-membering" it through the emotions and physical aches and pains from that lifetime in this one in order to clear it. The key, and this is the tough part, do not judge it, or hang onto it, allow it to pass through. This is easier to say in theory then it is to practice.

As mental or analytical creatures, it is in our natures to lock on to our flow of emotions or "situation" and criticize or judge how we are feeling or handling our clearing. This just locks it in and keeps it stuck in our current reality. It compounds the impact and locks it in. The key is to let it flow. Not an easy thing to do. We want to know what lifetime, why did we let certain events unfold in that lifetime?, and why did we do what we did? You are now sucked back into the full energies of that lifetime the more your explore it.

Let it go. Let it flow. This is the best advice. Be gentle with yourself. This is also a challenge to accomplish. Past lives begin to show up when you have cleared sufficiently parts of your "web" moving into the middle of the web, to the core. They must clear through all of your bodies to the final frontier, the physical body. We have created our core issues in past lives, past lives that were, at times, extremely impactful to our soul consciousness. These are the ones that can linger the longest and seem to come in cycles. They also involve some aspect of the twin or a very intense surrogate (replacement for the twin) relationship. These lifetimes were where your core issues were born, then fostered through subsequent lifetimes, and forward into the current lifetime.

What are you clearing now? Does it tie back to a past life in which it was created? How does it relate to what you are working on now currently? What is your belief about your twin or surrogate?

What is The Shadow Self or Separated Aspect?

One of the most influential beings or aspects in your life is the separated aspect or part of self that lives in the shadow of your auric field. Quite a mouth full, yes. When I first learned of the shadow part of the soul, I was completely unaware that such a thing existed and that this frozen part of self was playing a key role in my every day life.

It is called the separated aspect. Why? It has separated, partitioned and removed itself from the truth of who it is. It lives within the soul and is surrounded by the soul, but is separate and yet it is a part of the soul. It is the part of you that has cut itself and you off from the higher dimensions to keep you and it safe because a long time ago it perceived a threat. It decided to commandeer the position of the CEO or executive manager which the higher self used to hold. It was the relayer of messages from the higher self. In essence, the mail clerk who decided to take over.

It has lost its way and no longer receives divine guidance, but would have you believe that it knows best. It holds the mistaken beliefs of self and presents them to you during each physical incarnation. These are what I've termed in previous messages as your core issues - not good enough, unworthy, powerless and so on. You drag these with you like Marley's chains in the Christmas Carol thanks to the help of your separated aspect.

It will remind you in each situation where you feel that you want to pursue those things that will bring you joy why you shouldn't be doing it. For example finding that true love, creating something outrageous with skills you've always though you had but never tapped, or going for that dream job. The separated aspect is that voice that throws up doubt. It will remind you of all the times that when you decided to do (fill in the blank) you failed. And not only failed but you felt unworthy, not good enough, victimized or powerless. It will keep you inside your own self constructed box. In the dark, in the shadow hiding with your misbeliefs about self, not wanting others to see your "sin". What is sin? Sin is merely missing the mark. Choose again.

So, there are dark places in your auric field where the shadow self is apparent. It is difficult to get messages out to the light realms for assistance, as our efforts "bounce" off the shadowy or unclear parts in our auric fields. Likewise, messages or assistance coming in gets distorted by the shadow parts of self. How do we work with this part of self? It's been with us since it was created. We do not remember it from lifetime to lifetime. It remembers us and everything about us. The deck is stacked.

When you are determined to awaken back unto the original blueprint of who you are, you begin to become intimately aware of this part of self. As you begin to set your intention to reconnect, it will raise it's head with all alarms crying saying "stop" do not go here! It is afraid that by doing so we will eliminate it. When truly all we are doing is awakening to the truth of who we are - good enough, worthy, powerful, at one with all that is. And, we are taking that separated aspect with us. It is forever a part of who we are.

You begin the process of clearing and aligning to the truth of who you are while simultaneously creating a new reality from different beliefs all in the face of the maelstrom of the separated aspect. It is the minute by minute, daily vigilance of the exploration of and rebirthing of self many times over. You will work your process by finding and altering those beliefs that the separated aspect has held for you. That part of you is tired. Help relieve it of its burden. It is like a child and you are responsible for reeducating it and bringing it along in the process. It is not your enemy, although at times it may feel that way. It is taking you through your shadow beliefs, showing you what is there, and making sure you want to give it up.

You do!

What are your shadow beliefs or core issues? What sets your separated aspect off? How have you calmed or brought your separated aspect along in your process?

Do We Need To Protect Our Energies?

Daily we are in a sea of energy of other people, objects, places and circumstances. We are potentially affected by all that we come into contact with. We can start off our day feeling quite good about ourselves and the world in which we live, to find that by the middle of the day, after being "out in the world", we are drained and sluggish for no apparent reason.

I've talked in previous messages about clearing, mirrors and core issues. A key element to navigating the awakening process is protecting our energies. As we move through the clearing of past lives and work with our core issues (mentioned in a previous posting), our energy field or auric field becomes more open. Becoming more open is a natural progression in the process. It also means that we are like a bright beacon to all the energy that is around us.

We as third dimensional beings have picked up some short cuts to obtaining our energy to assist us in navigating through our day. We steal it from others! This energy robbing is called cording. Imagine a an arm like cord, varying in size depending upon the energy need, extending from any one of our energy deficient chakras and extending into another person. A giant human slurpy. Our potential as an energy drink increases the more open we become. Likewise, until we are able to provide our own energy needs from Source, we are still shopping for external sources of energy and will continue to look to others to provide it.

To illustrate, you may find that as you attend a concert or go to public places like a busy grocery store, or the gym, the existing energy makes you feel "like your skin is crawling", or "sticky". Or, you may find that after a discussion with someone, your energy is extremely low. Time to bring up those shields! Our physical body will tell us by the way it is reacting in different situations or circumstances that we need to protect it and our energy bodies. If we are feeling drained, we are probably being drained. We also do not need to be in the presence of another person to be corded. All they need to do is think of us and the exchange can begin. It's important to check with yourself and the state of your body and become aware of any changes throughout the day. Energy maintenance is key!

As I have navigated my process, I've been provided with several ways to shield and call upon assistance. Here are some simple steps:

1. I ask my team and my 'I AM" presence to shield me from all that is not in alignment with my entire energy field and Beingness. Ask that this protection be complete and on going throughout your day. Participate by envisioning a bright gold bubble around you and your auric field, followed by deep navy blue, and capped with brilliant white light. Repeat this as needed.
2. Simply state "shield now!". Envision the bright white light dropping like a shield all around your body coming from above you and anchoring at your feet.
3. Imagine a large sword of light cutting cords all around your body, returning the cords to the senders and cutting off the energy supply. Ask that your energy be returned to you. Then, follow one of the steps above to shield your energy.
4. Knowing that you have been tapped or that you could potentially be affected you could state - "I am the authority in my life. I am divinely protected by the light of my Being. I close off my aura and my body of light to all but my own Godself. Thank you God, Goddess, All That Is." You are essentially allowing only what is in alignment with your energetic vibration or above into your auric field.

These simple steps may seem complex and tiresome at first, but they are much less tiring then being continually corded and drained. You will also find yourself seeking and enjoying more solitary or secluded moments. As you are processing and clearing and protecting your energy, you will want to have "down time" to reflect and work through energetic changes in your body/bodies.

Have you felt changes in your own body and energy in certain situations and circumstances? Who seems to make you the most fatigued?

What Is Clearing?

A great question! What is clearing? Why do we need to do it? How do we do it? What does it mean for us? When I got a little further along in my spiritual understandings, I began to hear the term "clearing". Interesting to me to discover that clearing and healing go hand in hand.

In my previous message, I spoke of mirrors and re-patterning or reprogramming our bodies at a cellular level. When we "get" the mirror, our bodies do a cellular flush of the old program to make room for the new or the more aligned belief. Of course if you remember, we have to pull that new belief in, or call it forth within ourselves and lock it down in our bodies (the ultimate computer) during moments of intense emotion, e-motion or energy in motion. This happens again and again as we claim the truth of who we are, our original blue print, taking the onion a layer at a time.

While we do this, we can be affected by the clearing of the old programs in any one of the bodies of the four body system-the physical body, the mental body, the emotional body, or the causal body (Nan Langmead,Heartways). Because we created our judgments and beliefs (or misbeliefs) in the physical body, we can most easily and quickly clear and reprogram ourselves in a physical body. It's all energy. As I may have mentioned before, energy can get solidified and stuck in the body. Illnesses and disease (dis-ease) are merely stuck energy.

As we change our beliefs, look into the mirror and create emotion or energy in motion, we free ourselves to release or clear the energy or beliefs that we have held trapped in our bodies, any of the four bodies. In brief, how it works, to give you an idea. Vision problems? What aren't you seeing about yourself? Heart issues? What aren't you feeling? Is your heart closed? Shoulders hurt and ache? What are you carrying? Stomach aches? What can't you stomach about your life? These are simplified examples.

Depending upon what your core issues are, you will experience stuck energy in association with a particular chakra. For example, a challenged fifth chakra, where speaking our truth and connection to our twin flame resides, we may exhibit teeth or throat issues. When one is clearing this area of the body, it may seem that people don't hear you when you speak your truth, or as in many cases you will experience dental challenges as you clear this chakra. The key is to keep the energy in motion.

The physical body is the place the clearing needs to occur. An issue will travel through the other three bodies, but must come to and through the physical body to clear completely. Depending upon your makeup, your mental body may reside close to your physical body. Regardless, we will experience physical pain in various parts of our body as an issue clears. When we call forth healing or clearing of an issue, it could kick up a mental storm before it hits the physical body. If you are calling forth peace and balance for a certain issue, you will get the opposite, the clearing of all that is in the way of that, before you get to the peace and balance. That's how it works.

Likewise, when a clearing hits the emotional body, we find ourselves crying or angry before we move through it. A analogy that is apt is the ocean wave. The tide that brings in the wave that just put you on your backside, whether emotionally, mentally or physically, also recedes with the tide. While you are in the storm, it seems like the clearing will last forever, but have faith, the wave moves back out and you are left standing on the shore line with the sun shining a little clearer.

As we are multi-dimensional beings, we clear here in this dimension as well as in other dimensions. When we step onto the path of awakening, we begin to also work at night in the inner planes in other times and dimensions to clear our issues. We assist other aspects of ourselves in other dimensions by clearing issues now that we created in previous incarnations. We carry our baggage from other lifetimes into this one. Clearing our baggage here clears it in all directions multi-dimensionally.

Sounds bizzarre, but as we dream at night (the light realms indicate that we are awake from the dream when we go to "sleep" at night) we are also working to clear multi-dimensionally as we astrally travel. Ever wake up from a "dream" that was so vivid it has your heart racing and you feel it for hours afterward? Welcome to the inner planes. You are clearing and working on issues as you sleep. Be prepared to be tired during the day.

We clear to heal and align. We each have teams that assist us and point us in the "right" direction to help us to clear, meet the right people to help us to clear, and to keep us on track. We don't always listen, thus repeating of lessons. We assist our teams each night in creating the blue print to our healing and clearing. We are at cause whether we chose to acknowledge it or not.

If you are just stepping onto your spiritual path and have begun the healing process, expect physical aches and pains, emotional upheaval, and mental tornadoes that will pass as the wave recedes from your shore line. Embrace the clearing as best you can and make yourself comfortable during the process in ways that are right for you. Drink plenty of water to flush your cells. Hot baths with salts or vinegar also assist in the clearing process. Crystals, incense or scented candles also support your auric field.

Where does the energy feel most stuck in your body/bodies? What are the mirrors in your life telling you about what needs to be worked on?

Why Must We Look Into The Mirror?

Previously I spoke of filters or core issues that are formed from our erroneous beliefs built over lifetimes and how they "shade" our experiences from coming through to us as they are truly intended. Your next question may be, "how do I recognize them in myself, and how do I work with them?"

There is a built in system for third dimensional reality. In order to reach the answer to the question, I first had to learn that we are in what the light realms call separated reality. We left oneness, which is where higher dimensional beings reside, to experience separation. Doing so, we went from experiencing ourselves as one with all that is to experiencing ourselves as separate from everything around us.

Imagine yourself feeling at one with your fellow man, the trees, all of creation around you. You know that you are love, that you are God. You know what others are feeling and experiencing. There are no secrets. A daunting thought from where we operate in a place of separation. Not only have we hidden thoughts and feelings from others that we feel ashamed or afraid to expose, but we've even hidden our thoughts, feelings, and beliefs from ourselves. They control us by clouding or filtering our experiences, and they are not truth. Mostly, unless we focus, we aren't even aware that they are present and running. It makes you a hamster on a wheel.

So what is the solution? How do we get off the wheel? How do we recognize our hidden thoughts and beliefs, the core that runs our reality? The Universe provides the solution by asking us to look into the mirror and bravely face what is reflected back to us in separated reality. This is much easier than it sounds.

I remember going to my first channeled session. I was urged by friends to go to this channel. When she opened her door she looked behind me and above my head, and then at me. I thought that this was extremely strange. She later explained to me that Arch Angel Michael had been very busy bringing her people so that he could get a message though. Apparently, I had been escorted by him and several of my team to her door. He was building what she termed his legion of light here on Earth. And, when she channeled, he came through.

Part of his message to me was to have courage and look into the mirror. Since we are in a position of self evasion, the Universe assists us by mirroring back to us our beliefs through someone in our reality. They mirror those issues that we avoid looking at or are aware of directly within ourselves. Interesting right? Painful and uncomfortable as well. Our biggest mirrors are those people most predominant in our lives. They also know how to push our buttons the easiest. They are the people in our reality that have agreed to mirror to us our deepest core issues.

Let me provide you with an example. A few years ago, I had a supervisor that pressed me and pressured me. He was constantly pointing out how I needed to do this or that. Even so, I did my best to perfect and change how I did things, not knowing at the time that he was heavily mirroring back to me my own beliefs of "not good enough". Since this supervisor, I have been provided with ample opportunity to experience this same mirror through others armed with a different awareness so that I may recognize myself in the mirror and make a different choice about how I am feeling and believing about myself.

As I stated in my previous message, it is extremely difficult to face this type of core mirror. In bravely doing so and choosing the opposite with feeling or emotion in the moment, you are taking the steps that you need to heal and reprogram your core beliefs of self back to your original blue print. Simply stated, you are enough and always have been. The Creator sees you as so. Being a part of the Creator in physicality, how can you be any thing but enough?

How do the people in our lives know that they need to mirror to us? They contract with us at a higher level to perform this function. Often they do their jobs well. Other times, they leave us holding the bag to resolve our issues with another. However, this is a topic that I will explore further in an upcoming message.

Who are your mirrors? What are they showing you about you? Will you choose differently next time when faced with your mirrors?

What Do You Mean "Core Issues"?

After working with energy, learning about the different chakras, and using clearing techniques for myself and others, I was moved on to core issues. At first, I didn't really understand why we needed to shift to this level of understanding. It was similar to the feeling that I had when I was first introduced to "healing". What did I need to heal? What do you mean, I have core issues?

I had attended classes and sat through the same discussions and teachings as the rest of my class, or so I thought. Then, the point was brought up, do each of you think that you are hearing the same teachings? That got my attention. Were we? As it turns out, each of us has our own unique set of filters that we wear from our life's experiences that automatically shift our perception of reality and how we interact with it.

These filters are built out of lifetimes of beliefs. Yes, I said lifetimes. As it turns out, we carry these beliefs with us each time we incarnate hoping to resolve them where they were created, in the body. As with energies that we are working to heal or clear, the beliefs have to come up and be present for us to change what we believe about ourselves. We have to experience the erroneous or "miss" belief to "repattern" it. We have to be in the presence of the emotion, a very uncomfortable place, and that is the difficult part. You must be in the presence of it to make a different choice. That means you have to feel the feelings and reach deep within yourself to draw out the opposite, or the truth of who you really are to repattern it.

These beliefs, which are compounded with each lifetime if we do not work through them to get to the truth, go all the way back to the lifetime in which they were created. This is called the core, or the core issues. For some of us, they were created a very long time ago. What are they? I believe you are familiar with these topics, each of us has at least three and as many as six - not good enough, unworthy, victim consciousness (poor me), powerlessness, abandonment and betrayal, and poverty consciousness. One of them is your core and plays the predominant theme throughout your life.

For purposes of illustration, I will use a current hit movie to explore the theme "not good enough". The main character in "The Sorcerer's Apprentice", Jay Baruchel, plays a young man who had a magical, unexplainable encounter as a young boy. This encounter was tied to a first love and mapped the next ten formative years of his life in regard to romance or being able to approach potential interests. He was a brilliant student in physics, but when it came to love or interests in girls, he was operating from an embarassing moment that kept replaying in his head from a decade ago rendering him helpless to pursue his dream girl. The young sorcerer could eventually throw plasma balls and bolts of lightening (which brought up all his not good enough issues through the learning process) but was still working through his issues of not being good enough in order to win the girl of his dreams!

Eventually, David our young sorcerer, gains confidence by being pushed through experiences, much like we are pushed to face our experiences, and is afforded the opportunity to choose differently more so then ever before! Dramatically so, he retrains his brain and his body to the molecular level, repatterning himself into a great sorcerer and a confident young man. He wins the girl too! Although this is a hollywood example and we will not be throwing plasma balls (yet), this is very close to the truth of how the process of healing core issues is won.

What are your core issues? What theme keeps playing in your reality? What events bring up the fear in the pit of your stomach? How will you choose differently?

You Are Fluid and So Is Your Path!

As I moved along, consuming all information regarding the spiritual, learning to meditate and to listen within, I was taught to realize that I am all things, have been all things in my journey. So how could shamanism be my only path? I had several teachers who showed up quickly, and one who stayed. I began to look outside of what I was limiting myself to experiencing spiritually. And, I was at the beginning of seeing how I had limited the movement of spirit within myself. I began to work with energy, learning that I could work with my own and the energy of others.

When I first realized that I had this gift, which is inherent in all of us, I felt a piece of the puzzle click into place. My world changed and my place in it. A part of that which was missing was found in me and brought me great joy. However, my journey was still beginning and I had yet to learn that even this was just another stepping stone to discovering who I was and remembering parts of myself.

As I began to explore, I noticed that my spiritual landscape was as fluid as my energy and needed to be. I was moving, absorbing, discovering and realizing that as I needed a teacher they would appear. The one who has stayed, has brought all aspects of the spiritual into fluid movement, combining and utilizing aspects of teachings to propel forward movement within myself and others. I have learned that what is needed at one point in the journey may not be needed at another point, and can always be revisited as required like an old friend that has helped you along the way.

Most important, find your starting point. What calls to you? Where will you begin? Are you limiting how spirit can move within and through you? What brings you joy?