All great questions to ponder. As I move along this process, I find that my internal landscape is like shifting sands in the wind, ever moving, ever changing and appears different on a daily basis. As I go deeper in to my own process of awakening, I find that there are times that an unmoving unwavering emotion, feeling or thought will take up residence in my consciousness. This feeling or emotion will lock in and have no apparent cause in my immediate reality. In most cases, it is a combination of several of my core issues that are masked by other emotions that I can't put my finger on like being sad, morose, angry, or frustrated. During these times, I cannot "shake it" and I cannot put a label to it. It hides the core of not good enough, powerless victim, or unworthiness with this sadness and frustration for example. I would suggest that you do not allow yourself to visit these feelings for long and do all you can to keep them from permeating your current reality.
Welcome to past life clearing! As I move through this process, I have moved through many past life clearings. It is a necessary part of the healing and aligning process and becomes more prevalent as we go deeper into the process, and deeper into the core issues. We pull to us the past lives that contain these issues, closer to the creation of the core issues, to be cleared, released and reprogrammed, reprogrammed back to our original matrix, i.e.- I am enough.
Depending upon the depth of the issue and the tie-back to the related lifetime, the past life can seem to take over the current lifetime. It is not necessary that we remember the lifetime itself, we are living and "re-membering" it through the emotions and physical aches and pains from that lifetime in this one in order to clear it. The key, and this is the tough part, do not judge it, or hang onto it, allow it to pass through. This is easier to say in theory then it is to practice.
As mental or analytical creatures, it is in our natures to lock on to our flow of emotions or "situation" and criticize or judge how we are feeling or handling our clearing. This just locks it in and keeps it stuck in our current reality. It compounds the impact and locks it in. The key is to let it flow. Not an easy thing to do. We want to know what lifetime, why did we let certain events unfold in that lifetime?, and why did we do what we did? You are now sucked back into the full energies of that lifetime the more your explore it.
Let it go. Let it flow. This is the best advice. Be gentle with yourself. This is also a challenge to accomplish. Past lives begin to show up when you have cleared sufficiently parts of your "web" moving into the middle of the web, to the core. They must clear through all of your bodies to the final frontier, the physical body. We have created our core issues in past lives, past lives that were, at times, extremely impactful to our soul consciousness. These are the ones that can linger the longest and seem to come in cycles. They also involve some aspect of the twin or a very intense surrogate (replacement for the twin) relationship. These lifetimes were where your core issues were born, then fostered through subsequent lifetimes, and forward into the current lifetime.
What are you clearing now? Does it tie back to a past life in which it was created? How does it relate to what you are working on now currently? What is your belief about your twin or surrogate?
